Posted by Anonymous on 2012/10/16 under Uncategorized So I don’t know if anyone out there is going to listen to me & read this but I just wanted a place where I could write down something.. somewhere & hoping that someone out there would understand … no criticism and judgements. Thankyou to the people who do take the time to read this So there’s this guy who I’m deeply in love with, sometimes he’ll disappear out of my life & other times he’ll appear again, when you watch someone who you love so much like not say anything to you for 3 whole weeks? that’s just indescribable. well lately i feel like everything is falling between us two. I think it’s kind of my fault because I’m always expecting him to make the first move, I’m afraid I’m “Not good enough” for him or for anyone. So i just find it better to just blend in with the crowd and just throw my worth away, like have you ever felt like you were worthless? unwanted? unloved? yeah, those are the worst feelings ever. and if you hadn’t felt like that, you would not understand. Those things lead to ‘self-harm’ not always, but most of the time, it does, because I feel like that’s the only way I could escape. So I’m trying to get myself back together by the help of my friends, sometimes i think they don’t care. they don’t show me that they care. i cry at school until my vision’s blurred, until I can’t talk, until my breathing collapses. But no one seems to ask me if I’m okay. and i know this is kind of long so I’ll just make another post I’ll tag it #sav and if you ever come across it, it’s me & this is my first post EVER and I gurantee you that I’ll be posting on here a lot, byebye & thanks for reading!
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hey , a year ago , i felt the same , but dont woorry , it is a stage and will pass dont try to make him love u try to get out from love, just leave him and go , give him a taste of his own medicince and pls dont feel worthless u will one day be somebodys hopeto life, good luck its just the beginning of ur life u have a long one ahead tc and have trust in ur self <3